Friday, May 28, 2004

i can only hope

just thinking out loud...Meeting someone new… it’s all about the subtleties. That mystical thing known as… the first impression..... -Anything can lead to disaster. especially the things I have no control over: my face, my body, my voice, my style of speaking, my body language... -confidence can be observed… so can nervousness… so can desire... A mention>leads to... A picture>leads to... An e-mail>leads to... A call>leads to... A meeting>leads to... A glance>leads to... A smile… But do I get a smile in return? I can only hope.... - I start to doubt myself... Am I being to bold? Maybe the e-mail is a bad idea? Think of the alternative first meeting… A chance encounter at a relative’s house>leads to... A mention to my mother>leads to... A visit to your house>leads to... A serving of chai>leads to... A stolen glance>leads to... A smile... But do I get a smile in return? I can only hope.... -Different beginnings but the same ending… I can only hope.... Does a technical process begin after that…start with the interview... review the bio-data... call the character witness... assess the compatibility... compare with the ideal... -But I’m not hiring an employee!... Aren’t there supposed to be sparks? chemistry? romance? love? That’s what popular cultures says. right? So where do I begin? How do I start? Should I mention what i'm thinking to her?... -My gut instinct tells me to wait till a real meeting this summer. to keep it simple > don’t over think > just go with the flow. But I must start somewhere. I have an e-mail address. Maybe I send her an e-mail now. Maybe just copy and paste all of the above. And then wait for a response.... what will you do asad?

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Whilst reading this blog..it appeared as if you were actually speaking my mind,my thoughts.regarding this matter.
This is exactly what went thru my mind when i was informed about the whole thing."the first impression".how has it been?did i talk too much?did i smile a lot?was my behaviour appropriate?did i appear as a geek?what did he think about me?what did i think about him?should i email and discuss?should i wait for him to take the first step?if i email him, what do i say?how can you start talking about marriage with someone you have never talked to before?what if i dont get the response i am hoping for??
keeping in mind the fact that i had to look retrospectively regarding the whole scenario!
all these queries and more......isnt it strange that how two people can be thinking the same things, have the same reservations but appear to be indifferent when faced with the situation because they dont want to show the apprehension..the weakness..to the other..a defence mechanism, i wonder??

Anonymous said...

Whilst reading this blog..it appeared as if you were actually speaking my mind,my thoughts.regarding this matter.
This is exactly what went thru my mind when i was informed about the whole thing."the first impression".how has it been?did i talk too much?did i smile a lot?was my behaviour appropriate?did i appear as a geek?what did he think about me?what did i think about him?should i email and discuss?should i wait for him to take the first step?if i email him, what do i say?how can you start talking about marriage with someone you have never talked to before?what if i dont get the response i am hoping for??
keeping in mind the fact these rections were in retrospective since the firstr meeting had taken place without the knowledge.would it have been different if was informed before hand!?
all these queries and more......isnt it strange that how two people can be thinking the same things, have the same reservations but appear to be indifferent when faced with the situation because they dont want to show their apprehension..their weakness..to the other..and act nonchalant!
...a defence mechanism, i wonder??